20 Kas 2021

yapmakla olmak arasında sallanan o salıncak mide bulandırıyor.
Midem bulanıyor kendi yapmalarımdan yapamadıklarımdan olmalarımdan ve olamadıklarımdan
bir düğüm olsaydı tam ortada duasını herkesin bildiği okuyup üflediği
üfleseydik hep beraber o düğüme doğum günümüz gibi kuvvetle
kendini her yeniden doğuruş  bu yırtılırcasına kopuş bir gerçekten diğerine
yazsam da yazmasam da olmuyor
𝐁𝐞𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐈𝐬 𝐈𝐧𝐯𝐨𝐥𝐮𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐍𝐞𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐑𝐞𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐍𝐨𝐫 𝐏𝐫𝐨𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧
”What matters on a path, what matters on a line, is always the middle, not the beginning or the end.
We are always in the middle of a path, in the middle of something.
The boring thing about questions and answers, about interviews, about conversations, is that usually it's a matter of taking stock: the past and the present, the present and the future.
This is why it is even and always possible to say of an author that his first work already contains the whole, or on the contrary that he is ceaselessly renewing himself, transforming himself.
In every case it is the theme of the embryo which evolves, sometimes on the basis of a preformation in the seed, sometimes on the basis of successive structurations. But the embryo, evolution, are not good things.
Becoming does not happen in that way. In becoming there is no past nor future-not even present, there is no history.
In becoming it is, rather, a matter of involuting; it's neither regression nor progression.
To become is to become more and more restrained, more and more simple, more and more deserted and for that very reason populated.
This is what's difficult to explain: to what extent one should involute. It is obviously the opposite of evolution, but it is also the opposite of regression, returning to a childhood or to a primitive world.
To involute is to have an increasingly simple, economical, restrained step.
It is also true for clothes: elegance as the opposite of the overdressed where too much is put on, where something more is always added which will spoil everything.
Experimentation is involutive, the opposite of the overdose. It is also true of writing; to reach this sobriety, this simplicity which is neither the end nor the beginning of something.
To involute is to be 'between', in the middle, adjacent.”
(Deleuze & Parnet: Dialogues II, Columbia University Press, 2007, p. 28ff.)

13 Kas 2021

_→\ ' -

_ ÷- / ___

Uzun masalarda yan yana olalım diye, çiğ bulguru salçayla yoğurup pişirelim diye, tek bir topun peşinde koşarken her şeyi unutup, ipten salıncakta heyecanlanalım diye....sadece bu diye

7 Kas 2021

3 Kas 2021

"can yuvacan" diye başladı ve "sonra da hayal et, başla oyun oynamaya.." diye bitirdi mesajını A.A
Her zaman nasıl bir heyecan benim için açtığı kapılar ve nasıl korkarım hep adım atmaya.
Bu sefer oynamalı sanki!